To my dear readers/ friends/ supporters!

Hey girls,

It's been quiet some time since my last blog post. Time is going by sooooooooo fast for me! My sincere apologies! REALLY!! I've been meaning to update you guys, but I keep delaying it!

There's soooo much to catch up on.. so I'm going to list everything as a timeline recap!!

Ready?!?!

Okkk!

-JULY-

-Finishing up Cuisines of the Mediterraneans class... 2nd to last week.. I sprain my ankle taking out the trash during class. Go to the ER... find out it's a 3rd degree sprain.. Doctor tells me not to walk on it for 3 weeks... Leave with crutches.. go back to school to report incident.. Miss ONE DAY of class.. JUST ONE... come back on Monday.. to continue with production in the kitchen... on a fat swollen hurting ankle.. Unfortunately my school is quiet ruthless.. cause there are absolutely NO excuses for ANY absences even if it is for medical reasons endless it's an excused religious holiday.. so guess what... I fail for the day I was absent even though I hurt myself at school doing school crap. Yeah.. so to sum up ... I lose a whole letter grade...

-Go on summer vacation back to California and let my ankle re heal for 2 weeks. Completely ruined my workout... Hurt foot = nasty weight gain.

-Came back a week early from California to go on a week long vacation with Allen. We went to Boston & DC... met up with some old & new friends (Mel & Pam!!!! who by the way are awesome.) Had a phenomenal time! Seriously.. was so much fun.

-End of July = 2 month mark since I quit smoking... A big accomplishment but a painful one.. My crutch to stress relief is replaced by food. -_-.

-August-

-Begin Garde Manger class (a class that is focused on cold food items as well as sausage making, plating, color & texture coordination, etc... ex.) appetizers, hor deourves, forcemeats, sausages, etc..)

-Complete class

-Begin Banquets & Catering class... where I spent a week and a half learning how to properly work the front of the house (being a server, properly pouring wine, presenting wine, setting a table, picking up plates, serving plates, speaking, etc.) and where I spent a week preparing mass amounts of food for big catering events without sacrificing quality and finesse. Front of the house was a blast.... back of the house was rough. I got yelled at everyday. LOL.

If there's one thing I've learned in school.. it's to not take things personal.

Culinary School= Boot Camp.

OKKKKK

-September-

-I'm 3 months away from graduating!!!!!!!

HOLY CRAP yes.. 3 months!!

-I start Wines class on Tuesday. 7 hours of lecture... everyday... on wine.. more wine.. and MORE wine.. excited... but overwhelmed. Supposedly it's a tough class as much as it's fun.

-Enough about school.

-Relationship? Allen and I are great. I adore him and all his imperfections. Did i tell you guys that he's the absolute worst dancer in the world? But he could care less... He still does these quirky embarrassing dances... everyday if not every other day.. while we're driving.. eating... watching a movie.. cleaning.. LOL. ---____---

I'm moving back to California probably sometime in January or February.. and I don't know where our relationship will go.. but I do know that we're quiet serious... and he's really considering California. I'm not forcing anything on him... because I really don't want him to move across country for my sake. I guess we'll find out what happens soon right? :)

-OKKKKKK so here's the REALLLLLL DEAL!

As of now.. I'm TOTALLY freaking out. Absolutely!!! Like... the last 2 weeks I think I've grown .... over 10 white hairs... I haven't been able to sleep very well because I can't stop thinking! In 3 months.. not only am I graduating but I'm also turning 24!!!!!!

TWENTY FLIPPING FOUR!!!!!

Reality check!! In the next 5 years-----> wedding.. kids... career... house.. WTH!!!!!

I'm not ready! I'M NOT READY!

I'M NOT READY! I'M NOT READY!!

It's bad.. nononono... it's not bad... it's HORRIBLE! I feel like i'm still 13.. I'm not ready for the real world..

As much as I think I'm independent.. I'm not.. I'm not because I'm not!!! Oh how I would love to go back in time..

and become a kid again.

LOL. so seriously.. I'm turning 24... and... I've been thinking about my options after school..

There's sooooooooo much I want to do.. but how and when and where and lkdjalksdjf..

lol.

So anyway.. I talked to my sister the other day.. and I've decided.. that there is plenty I want to do.. but if I want to achieve anything.. then I have to refocus my self on 1 goal.. and put everything I have into that one goal..

brbb....

gotta finish laundry.. allen's nagging. LOL.

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it's 2:19am

It's 2:19am...

it's hot & humid in my room..

I'm anxious..

can't sleep..

my mind seems to be running faster than I can comprehend.

So many random thoughts..

Okay here goes my random blogging.. Probably won't make sense.. but it's just a way to release so please take note.

In plain words...

I feel old and abnormal.

I just finished watching this episode of true life.. with some 20 year old girl whos phone goes off like... every 2 seconds... she's constantly out and about.. with girlfriends, guyfriends, boyfriends.. etc.. busy.. busy.. social life is everything..

I'm the complete opposite. What the heck am I doing. Really.

I'm just beginning to realize that a few years ago I had a few very select friends that I would talk to once in a while.. and now I'm realizing I don't talk to anybody. I mean I keep in touch with people through facebook...... but WOW.

SMACK in the face.

I seriously don't talk to anyone.

Literally...

Outside of school...

my boyfriend..

and family..

I don't talk to ANYONE.

I'm so disturbed by this.. I'm like starting to freak out.

Am I weird?

HOW is it that... I don't have a single ounce of a social life.

::sigh::

Earlier today, I was telling Allen how on Friday after school I wanted to go out..

I wanted to go home.. get dolled up for once (since I'm always in my Chef's Whites now)... and go shopping with a girlfriend.. when I realized.. I had no one to go with.

*DING!@#$%

Really.

I could've called my guyfriends from school... but really? I really am sick of all the testosterone around me..

-_-.

Yeah.. that's when the tears started rolling.

I really gotta give myself a break though. I've been so self conscious lately that I've kind of sealed myself off again. I'm now starting to break out of my closet but it's going to take some time..

I had said in my Youtube video a month or so ago how I was starting my diet & exercise..

Well I started... and my starting weight was 159..

but then my academic classes (from last quarter) hit me hard.. and I ended up not having the time.. and guess what happened.

I splurged.. ALOT.. and I gained.. I went up to 164..

I didn't even realize I gained 5 pounds.. until I stepped on the scale after the quarter ended..

Oh boy.. when I weighed myself.. I pretty much beat myself up for a few days..

Buttt don't worry..

I did start..

and here's some good news..

It's been 3 weeks now since I've started my diet & exercise..

It's also been 4 week since I've quit smoking.

It's been a hellish month... but I'm glad I've gotten through it..

My diet & exercise this time around.. is no joke. I'm hating every ounce of it..

but i'm not quitting.

I've lost 5 pounds.. which isn't that much.. but I've gained quiet a bit of muscle... which I'm okay with..

blahhhhhhhhh..

I feel so emotionless right now.. is that a word? So... uninspired..

i'm flustered.

I think I'm going to reblog in a few days.. I need to gather myself.

::Sigh:: I'll be back.

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Massive haul/update/picture blog

Hey girls!
Long time long time!
So.... as i mentioned 2 weeks ago in my youtube video, my chef WAS suppose to schedule me less for my last month of work... lol ummm yeah. That was a complete fail!! I'm back to my old schedule.. working 5 days a week.. 10 hours a day. :( *TEAR!! I was so looking forward to having free time to myself so that I can really spend some time exploring the city and making more videos before going back to school. ::sigh::

but anyway!
I have so much to tell/show you guys.
I've been thinking sooooo much about sooooo many random things... researching this.. and that.. WHEREEE TO START!
I guess i'll update you guys first on... everything! AHAHa.

Ok so here's the rundown
-Externship ends in.. 22 days!!!!!!!

-Going home for a week in 24 days!!

-Start school in.. a little of a month again

-gained more weight. ROFL.

-Addicted to sour candy

-My boyfriend's an old fart

-I met some random photographer that creeped me out today by the name of Mark Fisher? Supposedly the guy is UBER famous? 0_o

-i got a haircut

BEFORE

AFTER

-i'm now on garde mange (cold appetizer station) at work...

Cara Cara Salad with cara cara orange slices, fresh mint, toasted pine nuts, white wine chopped fennel, ricotta salata & EVOO
Steak salad over a rocket arugula smoked shiitake mushroom salad with a herbed balsamic vin.

Gruyere salad with a mix of bibb greens with fresh gruyere cheese, garlic parsley croutons & dijon dressing.

-Actually I'm a ping pong. Chef likes to toss me like a ping pong all over the kitchen.

-My coworkers keep asking me how to spell things like.. pomegranate... as if i'm smart... just cause I'm asian. LOL. -_-

-I've figured out my body shape.. and it's rather depressing.

-i went to an underground sake bar with my coworkers and two of my sous chefs.. AWKWARD! lol. the entire bar was 105% Japanese except us.. can you imagine... 15 weird diverse kitchen wackos walking into an underground sake bar where the servers pretty much don't speak any english. LOL. interesting night.

-did i mention my boyfriends an old fart?

-I woke him up the morning i went to stay with him upstate during a GINORMOUS snow storm... and asked him to build a snowman with me.. and he responded with.. "HELLLL NO"

-_- old fart. he refuses to do.. romantically fun, childish, things with me. what a party pooper!

as a result.. I made a mini one.. on top of his car... by myself. yes. myself. while he acted like an old fart.. plowing the driveway... which lead to a MEAN ugly snow ball fight. LOL!

-Went out for some sun with the bf... near ground zero .. ended up being a BAD BAD choice.. cause we got scammed to eat a $10 hot dog -_-; rip off cart! RAWR!

- I've been cooking... ALOT.. lately.. here's some of the food i've made.. a majority of it being korean =T i know.. i'm such a fob. LOL. i L my korean food though.

Pan fried mandooooo
A basic korean scallion & green leaf salad.. with a sesame oil vinagrette
Gallbiiiii tang!!

Chocolate chip pancakes! (The trick to big fluffy pancakes my dear ladies! DONT OVERMIX!!! Overmixing causes the gluten to overwork which makes it dense... leave the little clumps it's okay! It's a good thing when you're trying to achieve light fluffy goodness! :)

Kimchi bokkeumbap

Chicken Pad Thai
Soondubu (still working on this), Ssam gyup ssahl & galbi ssahm, with mandoo and all the ssahm stuff to go with it :)
filipino inspired bistek with steamed mandoo and white rice.. i added a twist by adding mushrooms and korean peppers
peanut butter jelly cookie :)
bibimbap. so easy.

MOVING on!!!!

NEW THINGS I'VE gotten/received the last few weeks:

1.) Sooo a few weeks ago... I got a package sent to my boyfriends house.. I opened it and prettttty much screamed lol cause somehow or another I was sent a BEAUTIFUL pair of earrings & a necklace from Sophia as a gift in Vitrail Light (the color). My boyfriend thought I was crazy.. cause i was literally... oOOOOING and AHHHHHing. LOL. -_- But anyway It's even more awesome because this is Sophia's own line of jewelry made with swarovski crystals! So what's more amazing then that... is that all the proceeds for the jewelry she makes are going to be donated to a charity in North Korea that provides food and schooling for the children there! If that's not awesome tell me what is! I definitely give her props.. Investing her own money that she makes and spending the extra time making the jewelry and selling it for the cause. SOPHIA!! You're the bomb :). Seriously. Which by the way.. THANKS for the goodies toooo!! (She sent me tea and candy and pocky and all these little goodies that i devoured in the car back to the city LOL) So yeah..
If any of you are interested check out her blog!! www.kechiko.com . She's OOOOOBER cute!

2.) Next!! I FINALLY bought myself a new traincase.. after my ghetto $30 caboodle one broke at the airport. LOL. I ordered this one off of overstock.com for.... $89.99 + a.. 10% discount :). My Review: 4 1/2 stars!!!!

I absolutely lOVEEEEE my new traincase.

Here are the Pros & Cons:

PROS:

-extremely sturdy & durable! NOT flimsy like some of these other makeup cases (made of reinforced steel).

-easy to roll around and travel with (has a handle in the back like a regular suitcase that elongates)

-easy access, sturdy shelves, clean look

-has PLASTIC lining inside on the bottom of each drawer so that it doesn't get dirty from the makeup! You can easily just wipe it down with a cloth and wala! Clean :) No old foundation stains and crap

-easy to open

-convenient square mirror inside as soon as you open it

-can be used as a storage organizer as well! Like a makeup shelf!! Easy to clean and put away!

CONS:

-A bit small for alll my makeup, buttt on a bright note big enough to carry all my essentials

-the opening at the front where it pulls down can get annoying when I'm sitting on the floor and using it. It'd be awesome if it detached. but oh well.

That's about it!

Here is the actual description of the makeup case:

• Keep your makeup organized with a Pro Silver makeup case with drawers
• Makeup case boasts a high-quality silver dot design finish and construction
• Beauty product features reinforced steel corners
• Plastic-lined drawers and trays for easy cleaning
• Mirror under top lid
• Five brush loops under lid
• Four smaller drawers
• One larger drawer
• Two secure easy close latches
• Ten brush holders
• Swivel handle top
• Shoulder strap
Dimensions:
• Four smaller drawers each measure 5 inches wide x 7 inches long x 2 inches high
• One larger drawer measures 10.75 inches wide x 7 inches long x 2 inches high
• Top storage dimensions measure 11 inches long x 7 inches wide x 2.5 inches high
• Bottom storage dimensions measure 11 inches long x 7 inches wide x 2 inches high
• Outside case dimensions measure 12 inches long x 9 inches wide x 15 inches high
• Product dimensions measure 12 inches x 9 inches x 15 inches

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I love love love it!! How I organized it? The top shelf I store all my mac palettes, my brushes, moisturizers, etc.. (if i travel i toss it into the very bottom shelf underneath the big drawer, there's a big gap there). Then with the 4 mini drawers i separated it into categories.

1. Eye stuff

2. Foundation

3. Lipsticks

4. Lipglosses

and lastly, the BIG drawer i put all my remainder face stuff (my powders, blushes, etc.)

MOVING onnnn

3.) I bought this Eiffel tower candle holder from Target on sale for $12.00!!!!!!!!!! And guess what i use it for!?!??!

Pretty awesome huh? I love it!! Anything that has the eiffel tower is so chic. It just makes me feel all giddy. Ahahahaha.

4.) MAC Lightful Skincare collection

OHHHHhhh boy.. So i just talked about this in my youtube video so i won't get into too many details..

but bottom line.. I LOVE IT!!

Everything about it!

-The smell

-The texture

-The feel

Evvvvverything..

It does wonders to my face. Never dries my face out.. and keeps it really toned and refreshed. I especially like the cleansing foam, by far one of the best i've ever used!@

It's definitely on the pricey side.. I spent over $130.00 on the entire set.. but I figure I should start taking care of my face.. :) Until i'm 100% sold on another product I'm not planning to change!

5.)

OKKKK so as far as makeup I've gotten a few things:

-I just bought my first official $$ mascara out of pure curiosity. LOL. as ridiculous as that sounds.. it's true!! The only mascara that i've really ever bought.. is NYX's Doll Eyed Mascara which i absolutely love.. and... well.. yeah.. i don't even remember the last time before that. I've been given mascaras randomly as a gift.. like MAC's zoomlash (from the boyfriend) which.. i really don't like... and one from Jamie that was from korea that i DO really like... but that's it!

SO which mascara got me sold?!

FRESH Supernova Macara.

$25.00

Holy crap.. alot.. I've yet to try it..

but I was talking to a new friend of mine today (Lily- a fashion stylist!).. and she was ravinggggggg about this mascara.. and how natural it was and how it actually conditions your lashes.. without any tar or harmful chemicals at that.. what REALLY got me sold.. were well, quite frankly her lashes! I've never seen someone have such BEAUtiful natural lashes ... i kept staring at her like a crazy woman.. lol she started raving about it.. i was sold. end story.

Ahahahah. 5 minutes after hanging with her.. where did i go? Sephora.

SOOOOOO yeah. I'll let you guys know later when i start to use it how it goes!

Ok so HEre's the last thing.. before I end my 4 hour post. -_- i forgot how long it takes! holy cow!

So yeah..

I've finally figured out my body shape..

and it's rather sad..

but THERE'S HOPE! I hope these tips will help those of you girls who have the same problem as me. It's no wonder I keep going back to some of these clothing styles….

THE BODY TYPE:

Dun dun dun!!

APPLE BODY SHAPE

:( *tear.

So.. with the apple body figure.. our weight carries mostly in the chest and stomach and we usually have slim arms and legs (exactly my body shape)

Here is how you address this body:

TOPS:

Try to avoid too tight and too baggy, as well as thin material and go for slightly thicker to hide the stomach.

V-necks, boatnecks, turtle necks, mock necks, collars flatter us most! (Especially a good V neck!)

Play up cleavage, show a little bit of the girls! BUT!!! I a peek not TOO MUCH so that it can look a bit.. you know.. :).

Try to avoid big puffy sleeves, it'll attract more view to your upper body.

BOTTOMS:

Go for an a line skirt to get you a more hourglass look (i've yet to find the right one though)

YES! Goooo for the shorter skirts to show off the sexy legs! SOMETHING WE DO HAVE!

To balance the jeans, try lower waist to lengthen the torso also a straight leg or wide pant (even flare).If you get a muffin top wear a higher waisted jean but longer top to lengthen your back.

Here are some celebrities who have this body type!


So after looking through some online stores, here's some clothing that would work for our body:

EXPRESS:

EXPRESS:
EXPRESS:
EXPRESS: (this one i DEFINITELY want to go get!!! )

Crinkle Smocked Neck Top from Arden B $29.00


Two tone boatneck crop sweater Arden B $34.30


lurex stripe double v-neck top


plaid button front tunic $39.99 Arden b



glitter fit and flare dress $129.99 Arden B


floral burnout knit tunic $15.80 Forever 21


peacock sublimation top $17.80 Forever 21

*More tips:

-empire waist everything!!

-lose the belt anywhere near the waist, it'll just create more muffins and more attention to your stomach endless it's right under your bust

-heels! Wear some sexy sexy heels to bring attention towards your legs

-short shorts :) they work on us!

-v necks and halter tops

-off the shoulder!

-stay away from short cropped shirts

-AWAyyy from t-shirts that hug, as much as it looks comfortable on other people :( it doesn't work.

OKEy dokey. i'm off to bed! it's 5:17... but i'll talk to you ladies soon!

i love you all!

-Jinahhhhhh :)

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