it hurts.

I'm so stressed out that it hurts. Have you guys ever felt that before where you're physically in pain because your heads about to blow.. your chest is in pain.. etc.. This week has been hell week for me. I'm totally freaking out because of school. I'm leaving to New york in 2 weeks and at this point i feel so ridiculously alone that I'm scared. I think all of it is just finally getting to me.. the thought of having a crisis in NY and not knowing anyone to lean on.. to support me.. it's frightening. I woke up this morning.. and started researching my EFC from my financial aid.. cause it.. just didn't seem right.. it's ridiculous...

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Changing for the better

Wowsers! This week has been AMAZING!! I haven't had such a productive week.. in forever.. back to back to back..Ok so first off... I got a call from the Culinary Institute of America with my OFFICIAL acceptance!! WOOOOOOOOO!! I know i know.. i'm sure everyones thinking wth... didn't you already get in? Nope.. it was just me being overly confident.. but jeez.. i was actually really freaking out thinking of the possibility that I might get rejected. I HATE the feeling of rejection... it's absolutely the worst. I've been rejected soooooo many times that.. well.. yeah.. self explanatory.. you guys know what i mean right?! Anyway!!...

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