It's beeen just about 2 months I think... since I last blogged. So many things have happened..
Just a quick rundown of some Random things that've happened to me. I'm not exactly in the mood to.. edit my writing.. so I'm going to write very.. freely. I'm going to tell you guys the truth.. and nothing but the truth.. so bare with my... depressing.. desperate.. joyous.. frustrated... moments..
-I got some sort of flu.. for a week and had to drop out of my Garde Mange class late September
-Passed my cooking practical with a 94 in the beginning of October
-Spent the last two weeks in New York with Allen.. we cooked dinner every night together.. watched football every Sunday & Monday...
-Allen bought me a promise ring
-Bump on boob is finally starting to go away.. almost gone
-I've secured an externship site at Union Square Cafe in Union Square (NY).
-I need to find a place to live ASAP in the city.
-I'm in California right now...staying at my sister's house in Ladera Ranch (Orange County) until Nov. 27 then I go back to NY.
-Sister gave birth to her second son Daniel Jeremiah Park
-I'm at my sister's house.. to nanny my sister's 2 year old while she nurses
-I just about went through a 10 nervous breakdown while my sister was in the hospital giving birth because my nephew was making me feel helpless.
-Nephews in his terrible 2's. Every second= another tantrum... after tantrum.. after tantrum. ::sigh:: so hard.
-I've quit smoking for just over 3 weeks now... and I'm still fighting my urges.
-I'm desperate to smoke. I should feel proud of myself.. but I don't. I'm happy it's not effecting the people i love around me.. health wise.. but.... smoking wasn't just a physical habit.. it helped me cope with stress.. it filled in my gaps throughout the day.. it was emotional.. and mental..
-my habit of smoking has been replaced with eating. -___________-; depressing isn't it?!!?!?
-I've gained weight. ::SIGH!!!!!!::
-My weight gain is making me feel insecure.
-I don't want to even.. wear nice clothes.. or do makeup because of my weight gain.
-I've received products to test out.. but haven't managed to play with them yet.
-My camera is dead and I didn't bring my charger from san diego= no videos.
-I started a food recipe journal. Bought a random mini notebook at Borders... and made tabs.. and now i'm loggging all my fav. recipes.. including recipes of my own.
-I've started a journey to really get down and dirty with learning to cook. Starting with Korean food. I want to learn more and more and more.. about the foundations of my cultures food. Food tells you history. It's an amazing thing.
-I've been cooking something new EVERY DAY. Something I've never done.
-I'm obsessed with Hello Kitty. OH EM GEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
-I got a new macbook pro. But am still learning to use it.
-I love my boyfriend more.. than.. I can explain.
-I've decided to settle with an associates degree from my culinary school rather than pursuing my bachelor's because I feel as if I'll be wasting $64,000 for an extra 2 years of general ed classes that will never do me any good with a bachelor's degree in culinary arts.
-I'm starting to plan my business for when i graduate.
-I'm going to pursue my book on asian makeup.
-I'm craving girlfriend companionship.
-why is it so difficult for me to find good girlfriends. Once again.. for the hundred thousandth time.. i ask this same question.
-i'm a mess a mess a mess a mess a mess!!!!!
-I can't get the elmo song out of my head since my nephew lovesssssssssssss the elmo song.
-I can't stop thinking about the "ktown girls" video on youtube cause it's so flipping funnny. "Like.. OH MY *OD!" ahahahahhaha
-I need contest ideas to do a contest so i can give away gift packages of brand new SIGMA brushes.
-i redesigned my mom's cafe.. painted the walls from this nasty teal color to a 3 tone color.. one wall= dark reddish.. one wall= peanut butterish.. one wall= latte ish... made it into a.. paris kind of theme.. with coffee art on the walls.. A paris adhesive picture.. i painted Hiedi's cafe in HUGEEEEE decorative writing on the main wall..
-spent a whole weekend spray painting ugly cafe chairs black.. to make it more modern..
-i've been a slave since i've been home. Haven't even unpacked my belongings yet.. and it's been 2 weeks.
-I've yet to call any of my friends here in California because i have no time to myself.
-I'm also carless so i'm stuck in Orange County.. without anyone to go out with :(
-I miss my boyfriend so much.. i feel like I'm missing half of me.
-I want to get married in the next 2 years.
-I had a nightmare with every stress of mine haunting me.. HORRIBLE DREAM. i woke up.. wanting to run away somewhere.
-i wish i were 13 again.
-Did i mention i have the best boyfriend ever? Whoever said love doesn't exist is WRONG!!!!! He completes me. Literally.
-He's flying in for Thanksgiving to meet my family. official.
-We're flying back to new york together.
-I seriously need to find a place to live in the city. feeling hopeless.
-I'm in desperate need of a way to make extra money. My min. wage externship in the city is DEFinitely not going to cover my living expenses. Stressed.
-i feel sad at the moment. i don't know why. i just do.
All done =)
Was that random or what?!?!?!
Ready to see some random pictures?!!?!
Sorry girls.. I'm not as bubbly like i usually am.. although........ this really is an insight to everything that's running through my mind.
Fritada dish i made in my America's Kitchen.. made by me.. plated by me :)
Kim-Bap that i made for my brother in law.. and my nephew
The dinner i made tonight for my sister.. my brother in law and my nephew:
Seared Filet Mignon topped with roasted onions & whole garlic with a balsamic, red wine, mushroom reduced sauce.. a side of roasted asparagus and mashed potatoes.
bare with me girls..