Day 9

Hey girls!
Today is day 9... and I'm feeling pretty good I think. I'm still hurting from Wednesday... I can barely squat to sit cause my legs hurt so much. AnywhoOOoO~

If you missed out on my recent update video.. I weighed in on Wednesday.
Last week I was 176..
this week I weighed in at:

It's crazy right?! Who would've thought... 6.6 pounds!!!!! Typically that sort of weight loss is something you see on Biggest Loser, not at home!

This just proves that with hard work and dedication it's VERY POSSIBLE to lose weight...

I do have to say though, that I am a bit worried that some of the younger girls watching me might be doing what I'm doing except maybe.. not eating much at all... or something like that..

I just want you guys to know that I do NOT eat any LESS than 1200 calories a day. I hope that for those of you that are on this journey with me.. you're doing it the right way :) It's possible!! I promise!! You just have to be true to yourself and work hard! No excuses!!! I would hate knowing that my weight loss would make someone... cut corners... does that make sense?

I was talking to my mom yesterday... and how she really needs to lose weight.. not to get skinny but because she's borderline diabetic. My mom's problem is not so much exercising but more so her eating habits. Statistics wise, she's roughly 5'2 and about 180.. it worries me ALOT. So... oddly at her weight.. you would think it's because she's eating all sorts of junk and all day at that right? Wrong. She only eats once a day because she's so busy.. literally. So I'm pretty sure the reason why she's overweight is because she only eats once a day.

Ok to breakdown this is how it works.. by eating once a day.. your body knowwwwwsss that you're not going to feed it anything.. so it stores everything you eat straight into your storage fat.. so that it can survive. Your metabolism slowsssss downnnnnn almost like when you sleep... and it remains that way until you feed it. Now.. I'm almost positive that if my mom eat 3-5 times a day... and even 1600-1800 calories she would start losing weight. Your metabolism kicks in when you keep feeding it..... the more often you feed it.. the faster your body metabolizes the food.. which is whyyy skinnny people who eat ALOTTTTT don't gain weight! Their metabolism is soooo high that it just processes all the food instantly.. (which is why it comes out of their butt so fast too LOL).

I think this is also the reason I got the numbers I did this week..

Last year when I lost weight... I did cardio MUCH longer at the gym... and I ate less... anddddd I didn't eat as frequent during the day... so I lost about... 3 pounds a week.. roughly.. but this time.. I'm doing lessss cardio.. and eating more.. and I'm losing more!

okkkkkk enough with the jibber..... lol. sorry >.<

So... I haven't posted any pictures in a while.. so I'm going to show you guys a few random from the last few months.. enjoy :)

me in my service uniform..

Caterina.. the italian restaurant at my school (served here for 3 weeks)

the kitchen i worked in for 3 weeks in this restaurant

right before service.. my professor made us have a spoon of this nasty italian spirit.. to ward off any bad spirits LOL.. italian tradition?

my favorite group at school....

In front of the restaurant I did my externship at for 6 months.. last year :)

The night before graduation... we.. alll.. goottt... hammmereeeeed!!!!!!

graduation.. guess who's next to the president of the school? :)

I'll post again tomorrow.. maybe with more pictures? :)

Btw.. allen is coming home today from NY... and i'm stoked... i miss him... way too much. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

81 days to go.....

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Everyday is a new day

Last night.. after I blogged... I went in the room.. and laid down next to Bong.. and I had the most... amazing talk with him. I truely am the most luckiest girl. He's such an amazing guy.. he loves me so much. Without any words.. in the dark he just held me.. and he knew.. he knew I was broken.. and held me even harder.. then he looked at me.. and began to speak to me things that I never believed a guy would ever say to me. Everything he said to me.. was so.. full of unconditional love.. I wish you guys could've been there to hear what he said..

anyway.. to all of you ladies out there.. that don't think you'll ever find your dream guy.. just wait. be patient. don't settle down for anything less than your worth! He's out there.. looking for you.. waiting for you.. and once you find him.. it'll be a God-sent blessing. I believe in God. I believe that he listens to me.. and hurts and when I hurt.. and I believe that he sent me him.. him.. who comforts me.. and cherishes me.. and puts me on a pedal stool.. respecting me.. and everything I love. No words can express the gratitude I feel for the relationship that I have.

I use to make excuses to myself before.. in my past relationships.. saying this is all I deserve. This guy does the things he does.. to me because this is all I can have. I use to bash myself thinking I wouldn't ever find anyone else. Thinking that I'd be stuck with who I'm with for the rest of my life. But I was wrong... and you know.. I don't regret the crap that I went through.. because if I didn't go through it.. I would've never learned.. never gotten stronger.. never have expectations.. each relationship in my past taught me something new. Something amazing.
Pain.. it's just a learning process.

It's sooooooo funny.. cause my parents are actually content with Bong.. which is a FIRST.. but you know what my mom said to me? LOL.. in Korean.. she's like.. "you know.. I know Bong is chah-kae (good intentional & good hearted).. and he's smart.. and he treats you well.. but... BUTTTTT... why does he have to be so ugly".
AHHHHHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAha. I busted out laughing so hard.. You know.. in my eyes.. I don't see anything but perfection.. he has pimples.. and his farts stink.. and he has a WEIRDDDDDDDDDDDDDD fetish for smells.. like.. LOL.. he ALWAYSSSSSs smells my arm pits.. and even my toes.. and it's disgusting.. but AHHHAHAHAHHA... i love it. I love who he is.. I LOVEEEEEEe that.. he loves my imperfections.. I really really really don't see anything but love. Who would've ever thought. I use to dream of Justin Timberlake being my husband one day.. LOLLLLLLLL.. not some.. filipino.. bald headed.. monkey butt.. who talks to himself while he takes a crap.. and smells his own feet. AHHAHAHAHHahhhahahahahhahaha.

AHahaha.

Ok anyway..... big post. I have lots of pictures and random stuff to catch up with you guys.. from the last week. =)

First things first.. Here's the looks I wore.. the last 2 days.. I've been practicing doing makeup the same way the MAC artist did on me.. just to get more comfortable with it =)

This is pretty much the same look as the last one with the NYX except I used a purple instead.. it ended up looking pretty much the same


and the look I did today...
I used MAC's Humid instead of the Contrast...
a color you can use as a dupe= NYX mermaid green =)





k.. so.. yesterday..
this donkey of a teenager.. was playing with a lighter.. and got his house on fire.. -_- and it was right behind my house..
the view from my window




MOREEEEEEe makeup stuff.. I went to sephora like.. 4 days ago or so.. and I picked up that special edition thingy.. from sephora =).. It was $48.00? The payoff is pretty gooooood.. I like it =) supposely.. the sales girl told me.. that the company they used to make the whole.. collection.. used better quality ingredients than Sephoras signature stuff.. Don't know if that's true.. but anyway =)






oKKKKKKk sooooooo.. Today I also went to Nordstrom rack with my mamma.. and we were just.. trying on some clothes.. I tried on my first pair of designer.. stuff..
True Religion skirt? I like it!! Except.. IT'S FRIGGIN OVER $100.00!!!!!!!!!! RETAIL was like.. $3XX.00!! Jeez. must be nice for those that can afford this stuff.. HAHAHAHA..

That.. top I'm wearing!! IS SUPERRRRRRR cute! I bought it for like.. $16. and a few cents.. I usually wear an XL. YUPPPPP.. my gut is no joke.. but.. I bought it in a Large instead cause that's my goal.. FIT INTO IT.. LOL. That's my way of getting myself to be more determined!!!!! Can't wait till i lose enough weight for it to fit nicely!!!! Don't be fooled by my legs.. LOL.. my legs are rather thin.. and so are my arms.. but.. my gut= OOMPA LOOOOOOOOOOMPAAAAA baby! hahaha.

Since we're on this topic.. let me just show you guys what i looked like in san jose.. are you ready?!? Cause.. this is humiliating to the x power. Why oh why do I want to show you guys? Cause I never want to look like this again. ever. I was approx. between 193-200 lbs here.




crazy huh? Yeah..

I think I'm donesky for today =). I'm gonna hit the gym before I go home.. cause I'm in BOng's garage once again.. hanging out.. with a few of his friends. Sooooooooooo.. I will talk to you guys soon =).
Thanks for dealing with me<3

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